hey guys~ 2 days ago i accepted Christ! as weird as it sounds.. until now i have been a fake christian.. to expand this train of thought, here's the story...

September 22~24 i went on a retreat called "CALL" i expected this retreat to be like the other retreats, not expecting much, just going to make some new friends and such. (flash back)- there is this friend named david, who almost didn't come to liberty but ended up coming (another long story but i'll cut this one out for the important thingys) and he ended up moving tothe dorm right infront of mine. And with him, he brought his karaoke machine, which is a korean one used in the norebangs, and yea if you guys know me, you know that i dun really sing or do anything active infront of anyone. So as time passed, i began to grab the mike and started singing, just few days into it, i was screaming with top of my lungs. (you guys are probably wondering how this ties in with my spiritual life).. hehe well it does... i went to this retreat, and in this retreat was the first time, ever in my life that actually sang what i meant and out loud. first day went, second day went and it was the last day of evening worship, and we started singing, praise and worship. after the sermon, we started singing and they turned off the big lights and the pastor got up to give us a time to pray to God. as i was singingall the songs, since it was my first time actually singing what i meant, the words ran through my head and touched my heart. it was really something that i never felt before, and when the pastor gotup to tell us to get on our knees and pray out to God, i started with the intention of not crying and just praying gently to God. Well, an hour passed, i was on my knees screaming to God my prayer, and i didn't realize that i had about 15 people around me praying for me, among one of which was ye rae. and she was praying like a mad woman. "You just had to be there to experience this" one of my friends saying to another person. but yea after 2 ~3 hours of prayer on my knees, with tear flowing down my cheeks and me screaming, they had a bonfire scheduled at 10 but ended up delaying it till close to 12 cuz i wouldn't stop praying. and if you guys know me, you know that i dun do anything infront of anyone like that, especially infront of over 100 people (close to 130? or 140) but yea all of a sudden i got up, (which was a surprise for the ppl prayin for me) and then went to the pastor who was talking to the audience and requested the mike. he gave me the mike and without knowing what i was going to say, i opened my mouth and it went something like this, "My parents have been missionaries in turkey for over10 years and i have realized that they weren't in it just to convert the turks. God had a bigger plan which was to turn me back to him.... I have been boasting about myself about soccer and piano for too long, and now i want to boast about God." After this everyone was surprised but praised God for me. So i went back to where i was where the 15 people prayin for me were waiting and hugged them one by one. (this was more meaning ful because they were the ones from my school and we all attend the group called AFC (which stands for Ambassadors for Christ) anyways, ye rae was happiest and you could tell she cried so much but she told me that she didn't feel like she cried at all which was amazing. And after this .. i quote my friends cuz i was half conscious and half unconscious. So the pastor told everyone to head down to the bonfire and so they did except for the AFC members and me and pastor told me to come down to and share what i had in mind. but i froze and kinda stood there not being able to move, and so the guys helped me down to a chair where they laid their hands on me and started prayin for me. and then i said, "let me kneel down" and started praying in tounges which was really frightening to few people that were tere and so they left the room to go outside. Soon, i was laying down in a cross form speaking in tounges and having 15 people pray over me. and during this process i saw a real bright light and in it i saw the burning bush that moses saw, and the moment i saw that, someone touched my head and i felt this extrememly hot heat coming into my head to my hands and feet. soon enough i was on fire and everyone said that they felt how hot i was temperaturaly and that i was shaking. so the pastor heard and came back to tellthe guys to carry me outside, where i was laid outside on top of grass and the pastor knew that i was being attacked by demons because after speaking in tounges for quiet a while i started talking this weird things and he could tell that there was something wrong, and so he started hittin my chest and saying "SAY JESUS" and for a while i had no response. but after a while , my mouth started shakin and i started blurting out Jesus in korean. After that i calmed down, and so the pastor told the guys to carry me to the dining hall lounge on a couch. So i laid on the couch with still alot of the guys prayin for me holding my hands and feet and just prayin for me constantly. after a while i woke up still half conscious and they helped me sit up and sipped me some water and juice. during these hours, i was just totally still not responding to anything but just asking if i was in heaven and repeating over and over that "I want to see it again" (meaning the burning bush=felt like i was next to God) and everytime i said that, tears flew down my cheeks. After that somehow i fell asleep and woke up next morning, to a greatest day of my life where i realized i was touched and shown by God and have accepted him as my Christ, and was able to evangelize to few unbelievers right there and just unify our AFC group members and a verse that was said in a devotion today in a sport management class shocked me cuz it talked about the unity of brothers in Christ which as in Psalms 133:1. Well guys, here's my brief yet long testimony that i experienced few days ago and i just wanted to boast about how good i felt and how i wanted to share with you guys. If you guys have any questions or concerns just tell me and i will see to it that i reply to the best of my abilities. Love y'all and just pray for me that this won't be another of those spiritual highs but through this i could reach out to other people and live the life of Christ whose life we must follow.

so ryan cordell decides to show up in turkey, (What a nice surprise) so choi and i were his guide, had a blast and walked around everywhere, even went to see the "red bull airrace" we chilled, as cordell gulped down thousand tons of pistachios (or however you spell that nut)? and cuz of him we got to introduce him to all kinds of turkish food , trying everyone of those ourselves.. i have to say.. we gained weight while cordell was here~ and now he's back.. in taejun..i guess? and yea.. it's been great.. ....

little over a week left till i go back.. back from this wonderful summer of so many gorgeous encounters and reunions.. i wish i could extend the break to just a year.. or longer so i could meet everyone that i wanted to and travel around here and there.. but so much for wishing... i guess i will be moving from freedom to prison, back to a school that's rated top 10 conservative school.. it's kinda funny i chose to go to that school, though everyone around me told me to go somewhere else.. i guess God has a plan for me anywhere.. so yea hope you guys are all doing well and just drop in a line to say hey if you wanna be remembered~ ^^; (jk) well enjoy your last days of holiday as well and hope to see you all sometime soon again...